Those that know me know that I'm on a political bender like no other this year. Here on the cusp of the first debate, I feel as if I'm about to watch a boxing match between good and evil. My face is flushed, my heart is racing, and I have personal stake in what goes down tonight. For tonight, I can begin to see if this county is as naive and blind as I was when I fell for a Narcissist. For now that I intimately know the signs of emotional manipulation, I can never fall prey to it again, but before I gained that knowledge, I was in denial that true evil existed.
I squirm in discomfort with my stomach tied in knots as I am faced with the stark and sickening reality that there are millions of people buying it, and that I may soon be living the reality of having a president who is the poster child of Histrionic Narcissistic Personality Disorder (which by the way is 100% overt, unlike covert narcissism which is much harder to detect as the sufferer adopts a woe-is-me persona instead of the bombastic, literally believes he can do no wrong, Trump.)
Although you have no idea that my misgivings have NOTHING to do with actual politics, it scares me to death that men say to me, "But her eeeeemails." You are turning a blind eye to the evil that confronts you. What Hillary did was not evil. Turning an entire country against an entire religious group, with many members that live in our country, is fucking evil. The old white male fuckers of this country are so afraid of a religion that they want to vote a hateful, selfish human being into the highest office of our country. I'm sure there's still even a group that balks at the idea of a woman being president.
I know in the long term, as the torch is passed to the millennials, and the bigots of yesteryear die off, we will begin to know peace and harmony in unprecedented ways across global borders. The internet is turning the world into one gigantic neighborhood, and I have faith in today's youth. They know about sustainable agriculture, eating locally, renewable resources, and are not afraid to implement them.
In the meantime, let's try not to be ruled by hate and closed-mindedness to the extent that we vote in the most ridiculous caricature of the bigoted, woman-hating republican. That will forever cast a shadow on those that embrace that party for what it actually stands for: the protection of the constitution and the freedom of the people of the people in this country. In that sense, Trump is not even a true Republican. He wants the freedom to abuse his power for wealth. He does not care about the freedom of anyone else, and will not be able to do anything to effectively and adequately protect it. The fear mongering he is promoting is the kind that leads to concentration camps where people of a certain group are denied basic human rights, for no other reason then suspicion.
We are not a country of white Christians. The leader of this country needs to be able to take into consideration every single member of his/her constituency. This includes those with mental illness, military related mental and physical health issues, people of all ethnicities and religions,
not just those that are able to build humongous, wealthy companies.
I guess my bottom line is that no matter what her misdeeds have been, I believe Hillary to be a "normal" human being capable of empathy, especially when she has to make the hard choices, nor does she fit the profile of a disordered person. Trump, however, appears to be suffering from a disorder created by a lack of empathy. If he cannot mentally project himself into someone else's situation, how is he to solve the problems of anyone but himself?
I have trusted many men like this in the past, and every single one has acted in the same manner. A narcissist will lure you in, treat you like crap, and then blame you for their abuse. When I listen to the words coming out of Trump's mouth, it sounds like echoes of the bullshit my abuser used to feed to me to get me to bend to his will, to intimidate me, to silence me, to put up no resistance to his increasingly fucked up behavior. Many liken it to the frog in a pot, slowly brought to boil, oblivious to his fate.
The best advice I can give to you is trust actions, not words, keep your eyes peeled for projection and misdirection. If you can, look the the subject and verb in relation to Trump's answers given to specific questions. MAKE SURE HE IS MAKING SENTENCES and not just vomiting up words in various arrays that he know gains applause. You know the ones, "The wall! Mexico will pay for it! Crooked Hillary!" Mentally filter all that out and listen to the words he says that are on point...if there are any.
Don't fall prey to a con man. That shit already fucked up four years of my life, I can't afford four more.
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